I don't know what's happening. Nothing's like it used to be. Happy, peaceful, full of love. Aaron and I ended the break. But since then... he said he's going to change. But I don't want him to change who he is for me. I just don't want that. Then tonight... we got into a fight. All triggered by a myspace bulletin. Then he said he trusts me, he just feels like I'm replacing him. And I'm not. He says I don't love him, but I love him more than anything. He said he was going to cut. He said he was cutting. He said he was going to try to kill himself. He said it was too late, he was in the process of killing himself. So I called his mom and asked her to check on him. He then told me he didn't feel like killing himself anymore.

This whole thing is killing me. I'm not the person I used to be. He's not the person he used to be. Nothing's as it was. Why can't we just go back in time... to when everything was okay. I don't know what to do anymore... I just really don't know. I love him so damn much... why does it have to hurt so badly?